The rules of the universe should change to make all of these apply. It's only fair!
1. If you can maintain your weight when not doing a thing, then all you have to do to lose weight is either start exercising or start eating better, not both.
2. When you have your period, all bets are off. Your body should know better than to make you restrict your dietary needs during such a stressful time. Eating chocolate is essential to your sanity.
3. Holidays don't count either. Eat, drink, be merry!
4. If you are standing in the kitchen and no one is around to see you eat it, did you really eat it?
5. Eat a candy bar for every pound you lose. You deserve a reward!
6. Fruit flavored candy counts as a fruit serving.
7. Drinks do not contain calories...especially those of the alcohol family.
Showing posts with label overweight. Show all posts
Showing posts with label overweight. Show all posts
Wednesday, July 4, 2012
Thursday, June 28, 2012
This is hard...
For the most part today, I didn't snack at all. I didn't even feel like it. I had a handful of grape tomatoes sometime in the afternoon, but that was really it besides my meals.
Then the evening rolled around.....
Why oh why does food taunt me in the evening??!! I was fine all day! But come 7pm, after dinner, and all I want is to eat. I really want ice cream! I want a banana split with hot fudge and caramel and nuts...
I gave in, but only slightly. I had some kettle corn and a couple Scooby Snacks (cute little dog bone graham crackers). I'm going to go to bed now though so I am not tempted to do more.
The Goal
Now that I'm feeling better about myself and my medications are on an even keel...and life is going to be hectic for the next couple of months (at least), it's time to take advantage of that and work towards a goal. It is essential for me to lose weight! I am at my heaviest, and I am having more problems with my body than ever before from my back to my knees to my feet. I'm always in pain. Not to mention, I hate what I look like. Remember me shopping for a bridesmaids dress for my sister's wedding? It didn't stop there as I still have to buy clothes and bras every so often, and it's so discouraging to not be able to find things that fit/look good.
So I shall take a journey...and if I use my blog to stay accountable, maybe I will actually do it this time. I need help though. Please cheer me on?
First things first, my weight...should I or should I not disclose it? I suppose full disclosure means fully committing to this...but it's so hard to admit what I have done to myself. To make myself feel better, I shall remind myself how I got here: having four children and medications causing increased appetites. There I feel better. Ok, here goes...
Starting weight: 211 lbs
Now let's make a goal. Ideally, I would like to be down to my pre-pregnancy weight for Annie (my first child), which is 130. This happens to be on the higher side of the ideal weight for my height (5'5",113-138 lbs). BUT realistically, I'm happy with a much healthier 150. So...
Weight Loss Goal: 61 lbs
How will I do this?
I'm planning on eating a lot more fresh foods instead of pre-processed junk. Fruits and vegetables are high on my list. I need to turn to them when I feel like snacking. One of my new favorites are grape tomatoes. When I walk into the kitchen feeling like I need a snack, I will typically grab 3 or 4 of them and return to what I am doing happy and proud of myself for choosing a good snack.
Say, "Bye-Bye" to fast food! Maybe not entirely, but over the last few months I have been taking advantage of the fact that I don't have to get out of my car or make an effort to get food. I definitely need to cut back quite a bit!
Water water water! I've always been pretty good at this so it shouldn't be too hard. I'm choosing to drink water instead of anything else.
Carbs? Oh carbs, how I love thee! My sister is diabetic (type 1) and has to constantly watch her carbs. When I was visiting her a couple weeks ago, I started realizing how many carbs I am constantly eating. I love bread and pasta and sugar! This is going to be a hard one, but I need to not have 3 rolls with dinner and stick to one, skip cereals for breakfast and have some eggs, and for God's sake, I do NOT need a Snickers as a reward for eating a salad! This will definitely be my biggest challenge...
Exercise...this is difficult! Last September, I went to the doctor because my feet were so painful that I could barely walk. This started about a year earlier. Turns out I have developed neuromas in both my feet. Neuromas are nerve tumors in the ball of your foot. So very painful! Through the winter, I was wearing sneakers for the most part and they got significantly better, but now that it's summer again and my feet get claustrophobic, I'm back in sandals and flip flops, causing my feet to ache quite a bit. But regardless of my footwear, if I walk or run a long distance it hurts like hell! So walking and running are not good for me. Swimming is my favorite, with biking a close second. Now the obstacle is getting the time from the kids to go do it. Maybe I'll tackle food before I start an exercise routine (which will mean the kids will be in school by then, and I will have the time to do it).
Ok, enough rambling about what I am going to do and just do it!
So I shall take a journey...and if I use my blog to stay accountable, maybe I will actually do it this time. I need help though. Please cheer me on?
First things first, my weight...should I or should I not disclose it? I suppose full disclosure means fully committing to this...but it's so hard to admit what I have done to myself. To make myself feel better, I shall remind myself how I got here: having four children and medications causing increased appetites. There I feel better. Ok, here goes...
Starting weight: 211 lbs
Now let's make a goal. Ideally, I would like to be down to my pre-pregnancy weight for Annie (my first child), which is 130. This happens to be on the higher side of the ideal weight for my height (5'5",113-138 lbs). BUT realistically, I'm happy with a much healthier 150. So...
Weight Loss Goal: 61 lbs
How will I do this?
I'm planning on eating a lot more fresh foods instead of pre-processed junk. Fruits and vegetables are high on my list. I need to turn to them when I feel like snacking. One of my new favorites are grape tomatoes. When I walk into the kitchen feeling like I need a snack, I will typically grab 3 or 4 of them and return to what I am doing happy and proud of myself for choosing a good snack.
Say, "Bye-Bye" to fast food! Maybe not entirely, but over the last few months I have been taking advantage of the fact that I don't have to get out of my car or make an effort to get food. I definitely need to cut back quite a bit!
Water water water! I've always been pretty good at this so it shouldn't be too hard. I'm choosing to drink water instead of anything else.
Carbs? Oh carbs, how I love thee! My sister is diabetic (type 1) and has to constantly watch her carbs. When I was visiting her a couple weeks ago, I started realizing how many carbs I am constantly eating. I love bread and pasta and sugar! This is going to be a hard one, but I need to not have 3 rolls with dinner and stick to one, skip cereals for breakfast and have some eggs, and for God's sake, I do NOT need a Snickers as a reward for eating a salad! This will definitely be my biggest challenge...
Exercise...this is difficult! Last September, I went to the doctor because my feet were so painful that I could barely walk. This started about a year earlier. Turns out I have developed neuromas in both my feet. Neuromas are nerve tumors in the ball of your foot. So very painful! Through the winter, I was wearing sneakers for the most part and they got significantly better, but now that it's summer again and my feet get claustrophobic, I'm back in sandals and flip flops, causing my feet to ache quite a bit. But regardless of my footwear, if I walk or run a long distance it hurts like hell! So walking and running are not good for me. Swimming is my favorite, with biking a close second. Now the obstacle is getting the time from the kids to go do it. Maybe I'll tackle food before I start an exercise routine (which will mean the kids will be in school by then, and I will have the time to do it).
Ok, enough rambling about what I am going to do and just do it!
Thursday, January 12, 2012
Fat Sucks
Fat Vent: I have a very limited amount of clothes that fit me anymore, although my closet is full. I keep saying I don't want to get rid of the stuff that doesn't fit anymore because someday I will lose this weight that I have gained due to multiple factors ranging from pregnancies to medications to just plain old laziness (most likely caused by depression). But keeping it makes me depressed even more and makes me mad at myself for gaining so much. And somehow my clothes that fit keep getting buried by the clothes that are mocking me by some mysterious and cruel force.
Eat right, exercise, be more confident, accept yourself....bug off. It's so hard when its not really in your hands....
I'm putting all the small(er) clothes together and giving them to my mother-in-law hoping she can sell them this summer at her yard sale or something. Maybe then I can afford some clothes that actually fit me instead of rotating the 5 shirts and 3 pairs of jeans that do fit.
Pardon my random and public pity party. It's rare that I do this anymore. But maybe it will make people look at overweight people a little differently.
Eat right, exercise, be more confident, accept yourself....bug off. It's so hard when its not really in your hands....
I'm putting all the small(er) clothes together and giving them to my mother-in-law hoping she can sell them this summer at her yard sale or something. Maybe then I can afford some clothes that actually fit me instead of rotating the 5 shirts and 3 pairs of jeans that do fit.
Pardon my random and public pity party. It's rare that I do this anymore. But maybe it will make people look at overweight people a little differently.
Tuesday, May 31, 2011
You know you've gained too much weight when....
...you still wear your maternity clothes even though you haven't been pregnant for almost 5 years...and they are even too small.
...you can't cross your legs because your thighs run into each other.
...your boobs spill out of the top of every bra you own.
...your kids tell you that you're the best pillow.
...you wear your husband's clothes more than your own.
I'm uncomfortable in my own skin. But I have a damn good reason for it: freaking bipolar medications. About 2 years ago, I lost 50 pounds on my own! Then I started Seroquel and gained it all back over the next 6 months. My psychiatrist told me that Seroquel blocks the part of the brain that tells you that you are full. So that ravenous feeling I constantly had I can blame on the medication. That's my story and I'm stickin' to it!
But in all honesty, I love to eat. And the things that are so not good for you are my favorites. I love cheese and bread. I love sweets. I'm an ice cream addict. Fried foods are to die for! Mmmmm burger...... Ok, enough, I'm drooling now.
At the beginning of 2011, Luke and I changed our diets completely by replacing healthier foods for the not so healthy ones. We did pretty well for 2 or 3 weeks, but if we are being truthful with ourselves, the replacements really didn't taste like the real deal that we were constantly craving. We quit the replacements and tried to just eat what we like, just in moderation instead. That took about a week to go out the window. Sigh...I have such horrible will power!
I have this theory that since I maintain the weight I am at (200 lbs) with my normal diet and activity level, that if I change just one of them, I should see results. After all, the first time I lost 50 lbs, all I did was eat better, no exercise changes. We failed miserably at the whole eating thing, so I tried tackling the exercise thing.
I loathe exercise. I've never been one to like it. I mean, even back when I was thin and fit, I was athletic (could kick anyone's butt in a race) and energetic (or manic, one of the two), but I hated actually buckling down and doing anything that was considered exercise. In fact, I studied karate from 11 to 16 (yah, I even have my blackbelt!), and during classes we had to warm up with exercise type stuff (sit ups, push ups, etc). I lazily went through that, and then when we got to the real karate stuff, I was back in full force. Exercise is not fun to me. I don't get the people who are addicted to exercising.
In January, we bought a Wii. I was super excited because I could play games (which were fun) and still be exercising (or at least tricking myself into exercising without even knowing it). We got the Wii Fit bundle, the sports resort games, and Just Dance 2. For a good few weeks, I was doing pretty well. I would commit to at least 30 minutes a day playing the Wii to get myself up and moving (hey, it was better than nothing, which is what I was previously doing). I liked that I was competing against myself in many of the games. Having that drive to beat my last score (or crush anyone else's saved score) was motivating.
But soon I got bored.....and my knees hurt, my left foot was having issues, my back ached. I quit again. How does a fat person exercise when all it does is hurt like hell? I'm getting old. No gray hairs, but damn, my joints hurt. From my knuckles to my shoulders, to each individual vertebrae in my back to my hips, my knees, my ankles...I'm in pain when I do any kind of exercise....even walking to the park and back (which is a block away).
It's an endless cycle...meds caused weight gain, weight gain makes me depressed even though meds are working, try to go off meds to lose weight, get depressed because meds were fixing the depression issues, go back on meds, gain weight back....then add in the more weight I have the more my joints hurt, so I need to lose weight to be able to lighten up on my joints, but to lose weight I need to exercise, and that hurts. AHHHHHH!
Like I said, I'm working on it. No pain, no gain, right? Wait, shouldn't that say, "No pain, no lose?" Anyway, I'm trying.
On another note, I wanted to point out something that I am sure everyone does. Have you ever seen an overweight lady who's clothes are too small and unflattering? And your immediate thought is "Ew, gross!" Right? Let me give you something to think about. Maybe that woman is on medications for bipolar, kidney disease, diabetes, high blood pressure or seizures, or even birth control or steroids for breathing problems and other illnesses, that is causing her to gain weight. Maybe she can't really afford to get a whole new wardrobe because of the weight gain, so she's just trying to make the best of what she has in her closet. Maybe her bigger clothes that she did purchase when she gained weight are all in the laundry so she's wearing what's left. Maybe her child spilled something on the shirt she was wearing earlier that fit her better and she had to grab something else to wear. Maybe her house burned down and the only clothes she has are the things people donated to her. So now do you think, "Ew gross!"? Naw, she seems a little more acceptable, right?
The fact is you do not know everything about anyone, so judging them isn't really fair. And you all like me, right? Well, everything about that woman (except the house burning down) applies to me. So are you thinking, "Ew gross!" still? Just something to think about. :-)
...you can't cross your legs because your thighs run into each other.
...your boobs spill out of the top of every bra you own.
...your kids tell you that you're the best pillow.
...you wear your husband's clothes more than your own.
I'm uncomfortable in my own skin. But I have a damn good reason for it: freaking bipolar medications. About 2 years ago, I lost 50 pounds on my own! Then I started Seroquel and gained it all back over the next 6 months. My psychiatrist told me that Seroquel blocks the part of the brain that tells you that you are full. So that ravenous feeling I constantly had I can blame on the medication. That's my story and I'm stickin' to it!
But in all honesty, I love to eat. And the things that are so not good for you are my favorites. I love cheese and bread. I love sweets. I'm an ice cream addict. Fried foods are to die for! Mmmmm burger...... Ok, enough, I'm drooling now.
At the beginning of 2011, Luke and I changed our diets completely by replacing healthier foods for the not so healthy ones. We did pretty well for 2 or 3 weeks, but if we are being truthful with ourselves, the replacements really didn't taste like the real deal that we were constantly craving. We quit the replacements and tried to just eat what we like, just in moderation instead. That took about a week to go out the window. Sigh...I have such horrible will power!
I have this theory that since I maintain the weight I am at (200 lbs) with my normal diet and activity level, that if I change just one of them, I should see results. After all, the first time I lost 50 lbs, all I did was eat better, no exercise changes. We failed miserably at the whole eating thing, so I tried tackling the exercise thing.
I loathe exercise. I've never been one to like it. I mean, even back when I was thin and fit, I was athletic (could kick anyone's butt in a race) and energetic (or manic, one of the two), but I hated actually buckling down and doing anything that was considered exercise. In fact, I studied karate from 11 to 16 (yah, I even have my blackbelt!), and during classes we had to warm up with exercise type stuff (sit ups, push ups, etc). I lazily went through that, and then when we got to the real karate stuff, I was back in full force. Exercise is not fun to me. I don't get the people who are addicted to exercising.
In January, we bought a Wii. I was super excited because I could play games (which were fun) and still be exercising (or at least tricking myself into exercising without even knowing it). We got the Wii Fit bundle, the sports resort games, and Just Dance 2. For a good few weeks, I was doing pretty well. I would commit to at least 30 minutes a day playing the Wii to get myself up and moving (hey, it was better than nothing, which is what I was previously doing). I liked that I was competing against myself in many of the games. Having that drive to beat my last score (or crush anyone else's saved score) was motivating.
But soon I got bored.....and my knees hurt, my left foot was having issues, my back ached. I quit again. How does a fat person exercise when all it does is hurt like hell? I'm getting old. No gray hairs, but damn, my joints hurt. From my knuckles to my shoulders, to each individual vertebrae in my back to my hips, my knees, my ankles...I'm in pain when I do any kind of exercise....even walking to the park and back (which is a block away).
It's an endless cycle...meds caused weight gain, weight gain makes me depressed even though meds are working, try to go off meds to lose weight, get depressed because meds were fixing the depression issues, go back on meds, gain weight back....then add in the more weight I have the more my joints hurt, so I need to lose weight to be able to lighten up on my joints, but to lose weight I need to exercise, and that hurts. AHHHHHH!
Like I said, I'm working on it. No pain, no gain, right? Wait, shouldn't that say, "No pain, no lose?" Anyway, I'm trying.
On another note, I wanted to point out something that I am sure everyone does. Have you ever seen an overweight lady who's clothes are too small and unflattering? And your immediate thought is "Ew, gross!" Right? Let me give you something to think about. Maybe that woman is on medications for bipolar, kidney disease, diabetes, high blood pressure or seizures, or even birth control or steroids for breathing problems and other illnesses, that is causing her to gain weight. Maybe she can't really afford to get a whole new wardrobe because of the weight gain, so she's just trying to make the best of what she has in her closet. Maybe her bigger clothes that she did purchase when she gained weight are all in the laundry so she's wearing what's left. Maybe her child spilled something on the shirt she was wearing earlier that fit her better and she had to grab something else to wear. Maybe her house burned down and the only clothes she has are the things people donated to her. So now do you think, "Ew gross!"? Naw, she seems a little more acceptable, right?
The fact is you do not know everything about anyone, so judging them isn't really fair. And you all like me, right? Well, everything about that woman (except the house burning down) applies to me. So are you thinking, "Ew gross!" still? Just something to think about. :-)
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