The rules of the universe should change to make all of these apply. It's only fair!
1. If you can maintain your weight when not doing a thing, then all you have to do to lose weight is either start exercising or start eating better, not both.
2. When you have your period, all bets are off. Your body should know better than to make you restrict your dietary needs during such a stressful time. Eating chocolate is essential to your sanity.
3. Holidays don't count either. Eat, drink, be merry!
4. If you are standing in the kitchen and no one is around to see you eat it, did you really eat it?
5. Eat a candy bar for every pound you lose. You deserve a reward!
6. Fruit flavored candy counts as a fruit serving.
7. Drinks do not contain calories...especially those of the alcohol family.
Wednesday, July 4, 2012
Friday, June 29, 2012
5QF: Food, Summer, Heat
What is a 5QF?
It's a 5 Question Friday! I know I have a lot of followers that don't even know who I am, so I thought I would start this one to give you all a little insight in to me. We'll see if I like it. Basically, five random questions from 5CrookedHalos. You can join in too if you'd like! Make sure you share your link with me below in my comments!
1. What's your favorite childhood snack that you still eat as an adult?
The first thing that popped into my mind is a bagel with cream cheese and Cool Ranch Doritos on it. Yes, I said on it....and No, I did not start eating this when I was pregnant. This became a staple lunch of mine in High School. One of my friends did it and we all tried it and it was amazing....boy that sounded kinda like drugs....
2. What food will you not eat the low fat version of?
Gorsh, there's so many. I'd rather eat a smaller portion than go to low fat.
3. What's your favorite way to cool off during the summer?
I love floating in a tube on a lake. I love the way the waves bounce me up and down. Before I had kids to tend to at the lake, I used to fall asleep in the tube and get a nice crisp sun burn. Now it's more like I have at least one child sitting on me asking me to swim back and forth from the shore to the jumping dock. That's become even more likable!
4. What's your favorite summer read?
I have never been good at reading during the summer. I have issues with the sun hitting the page and then frying my eye balls. I've tried so many different ways to make it work, but I realized I don't really care to do it anyway. If I'm laying around able to read, I'd just rather keep my eyes closed and listen to what's around me. I love the sound of my kids giggling and water splashing.
5. What are you doing to stay cool in this awful heat?
We hand washed the cars today! It was actually on our summer bucket list to do, and the kids loved it! We all got wet and soapy and really enjoyed each other. And bonus, our cars got all shiny!
It's a 5 Question Friday! I know I have a lot of followers that don't even know who I am, so I thought I would start this one to give you all a little insight in to me. We'll see if I like it. Basically, five random questions from 5CrookedHalos. You can join in too if you'd like! Make sure you share your link with me below in my comments!
1. What's your favorite childhood snack that you still eat as an adult?
The first thing that popped into my mind is a bagel with cream cheese and Cool Ranch Doritos on it. Yes, I said on it....and No, I did not start eating this when I was pregnant. This became a staple lunch of mine in High School. One of my friends did it and we all tried it and it was amazing....boy that sounded kinda like drugs....
2. What food will you not eat the low fat version of?
Gorsh, there's so many. I'd rather eat a smaller portion than go to low fat.
3. What's your favorite way to cool off during the summer?
I love floating in a tube on a lake. I love the way the waves bounce me up and down. Before I had kids to tend to at the lake, I used to fall asleep in the tube and get a nice crisp sun burn. Now it's more like I have at least one child sitting on me asking me to swim back and forth from the shore to the jumping dock. That's become even more likable!
4. What's your favorite summer read?
I have never been good at reading during the summer. I have issues with the sun hitting the page and then frying my eye balls. I've tried so many different ways to make it work, but I realized I don't really care to do it anyway. If I'm laying around able to read, I'd just rather keep my eyes closed and listen to what's around me. I love the sound of my kids giggling and water splashing.
5. What are you doing to stay cool in this awful heat?
We hand washed the cars today! It was actually on our summer bucket list to do, and the kids loved it! We all got wet and soapy and really enjoyed each other. And bonus, our cars got all shiny!
FMF: Dance
What's an FMF?
Five minute Friday...but I never adhere to five minutes. I'm a rebel. It's free writing with no thinking. Just writing. TheGypsyMama gives you a word and you just write about it. Whatever comes to mind... Ready?
GO!
I just saw Madagascar 3 with my son JJ. So as soon as I saw the word for this week is DANCE, I sang to myself, "Duh duh da da duh duh duh duh, Circus, duh duh da da duh duh duh duh, Afro, Afro Circus Afro Circus, Polka Dot, Polka Dot, Afro Circus!" Then I grinned to myself. Just the picture of all those bright colors on Marty as he sings this silly song doing a little dance makes me feel like a kid inside...
Then I remembered that during said movie, I did a little dance of my own...I danced clear around my diet (ehem, it's not a diet, it's a way of life). I had lots of popcorn....and some nachos....and some Mr. Pibb (not diet)... I swear JJ made me do it! He forced me down and shoved it down my throat and...
I also had a peanut butter cup earlier today.
BUT in my defense, I did eat a 90% lean burger for lunch with NO BUN! Woot!
Eh, tomorrow's another day. I still want that banana split, by the way.
STOP!
For the fun of it though, do a little dance with me:
Wanna do an FMF too? I'd love to see it so leave the link below!
Five minute Friday...but I never adhere to five minutes. I'm a rebel. It's free writing with no thinking. Just writing. TheGypsyMama gives you a word and you just write about it. Whatever comes to mind... Ready?
GO!
I just saw Madagascar 3 with my son JJ. So as soon as I saw the word for this week is DANCE, I sang to myself, "Duh duh da da duh duh duh duh, Circus, duh duh da da duh duh duh duh, Afro, Afro Circus Afro Circus, Polka Dot, Polka Dot, Afro Circus!" Then I grinned to myself. Just the picture of all those bright colors on Marty as he sings this silly song doing a little dance makes me feel like a kid inside...
Then I remembered that during said movie, I did a little dance of my own...I danced clear around my diet (ehem, it's not a diet, it's a way of life). I had lots of popcorn....and some nachos....and some Mr. Pibb (not diet)... I swear JJ made me do it! He forced me down and shoved it down my throat and...
I also had a peanut butter cup earlier today.
BUT in my defense, I did eat a 90% lean burger for lunch with NO BUN! Woot!
Eh, tomorrow's another day. I still want that banana split, by the way.
STOP!
For the fun of it though, do a little dance with me:
Wanna do an FMF too? I'd love to see it so leave the link below!
Thursday, June 28, 2012
This is hard...
For the most part today, I didn't snack at all. I didn't even feel like it. I had a handful of grape tomatoes sometime in the afternoon, but that was really it besides my meals.
Then the evening rolled around.....
Why oh why does food taunt me in the evening??!! I was fine all day! But come 7pm, after dinner, and all I want is to eat. I really want ice cream! I want a banana split with hot fudge and caramel and nuts...
I gave in, but only slightly. I had some kettle corn and a couple Scooby Snacks (cute little dog bone graham crackers). I'm going to go to bed now though so I am not tempted to do more.
The Goal
Now that I'm feeling better about myself and my medications are on an even keel...and life is going to be hectic for the next couple of months (at least), it's time to take advantage of that and work towards a goal. It is essential for me to lose weight! I am at my heaviest, and I am having more problems with my body than ever before from my back to my knees to my feet. I'm always in pain. Not to mention, I hate what I look like. Remember me shopping for a bridesmaids dress for my sister's wedding? It didn't stop there as I still have to buy clothes and bras every so often, and it's so discouraging to not be able to find things that fit/look good.
So I shall take a journey...and if I use my blog to stay accountable, maybe I will actually do it this time. I need help though. Please cheer me on?
First things first, my weight...should I or should I not disclose it? I suppose full disclosure means fully committing to this...but it's so hard to admit what I have done to myself. To make myself feel better, I shall remind myself how I got here: having four children and medications causing increased appetites. There I feel better. Ok, here goes...
Starting weight: 211 lbs
Now let's make a goal. Ideally, I would like to be down to my pre-pregnancy weight for Annie (my first child), which is 130. This happens to be on the higher side of the ideal weight for my height (5'5",113-138 lbs). BUT realistically, I'm happy with a much healthier 150. So...
Weight Loss Goal: 61 lbs
How will I do this?
I'm planning on eating a lot more fresh foods instead of pre-processed junk. Fruits and vegetables are high on my list. I need to turn to them when I feel like snacking. One of my new favorites are grape tomatoes. When I walk into the kitchen feeling like I need a snack, I will typically grab 3 or 4 of them and return to what I am doing happy and proud of myself for choosing a good snack.
Say, "Bye-Bye" to fast food! Maybe not entirely, but over the last few months I have been taking advantage of the fact that I don't have to get out of my car or make an effort to get food. I definitely need to cut back quite a bit!
Water water water! I've always been pretty good at this so it shouldn't be too hard. I'm choosing to drink water instead of anything else.
Carbs? Oh carbs, how I love thee! My sister is diabetic (type 1) and has to constantly watch her carbs. When I was visiting her a couple weeks ago, I started realizing how many carbs I am constantly eating. I love bread and pasta and sugar! This is going to be a hard one, but I need to not have 3 rolls with dinner and stick to one, skip cereals for breakfast and have some eggs, and for God's sake, I do NOT need a Snickers as a reward for eating a salad! This will definitely be my biggest challenge...
Exercise...this is difficult! Last September, I went to the doctor because my feet were so painful that I could barely walk. This started about a year earlier. Turns out I have developed neuromas in both my feet. Neuromas are nerve tumors in the ball of your foot. So very painful! Through the winter, I was wearing sneakers for the most part and they got significantly better, but now that it's summer again and my feet get claustrophobic, I'm back in sandals and flip flops, causing my feet to ache quite a bit. But regardless of my footwear, if I walk or run a long distance it hurts like hell! So walking and running are not good for me. Swimming is my favorite, with biking a close second. Now the obstacle is getting the time from the kids to go do it. Maybe I'll tackle food before I start an exercise routine (which will mean the kids will be in school by then, and I will have the time to do it).
Ok, enough rambling about what I am going to do and just do it!
So I shall take a journey...and if I use my blog to stay accountable, maybe I will actually do it this time. I need help though. Please cheer me on?
First things first, my weight...should I or should I not disclose it? I suppose full disclosure means fully committing to this...but it's so hard to admit what I have done to myself. To make myself feel better, I shall remind myself how I got here: having four children and medications causing increased appetites. There I feel better. Ok, here goes...
Starting weight: 211 lbs
Now let's make a goal. Ideally, I would like to be down to my pre-pregnancy weight for Annie (my first child), which is 130. This happens to be on the higher side of the ideal weight for my height (5'5",113-138 lbs). BUT realistically, I'm happy with a much healthier 150. So...
Weight Loss Goal: 61 lbs
How will I do this?
I'm planning on eating a lot more fresh foods instead of pre-processed junk. Fruits and vegetables are high on my list. I need to turn to them when I feel like snacking. One of my new favorites are grape tomatoes. When I walk into the kitchen feeling like I need a snack, I will typically grab 3 or 4 of them and return to what I am doing happy and proud of myself for choosing a good snack.
Say, "Bye-Bye" to fast food! Maybe not entirely, but over the last few months I have been taking advantage of the fact that I don't have to get out of my car or make an effort to get food. I definitely need to cut back quite a bit!
Water water water! I've always been pretty good at this so it shouldn't be too hard. I'm choosing to drink water instead of anything else.
Carbs? Oh carbs, how I love thee! My sister is diabetic (type 1) and has to constantly watch her carbs. When I was visiting her a couple weeks ago, I started realizing how many carbs I am constantly eating. I love bread and pasta and sugar! This is going to be a hard one, but I need to not have 3 rolls with dinner and stick to one, skip cereals for breakfast and have some eggs, and for God's sake, I do NOT need a Snickers as a reward for eating a salad! This will definitely be my biggest challenge...
Exercise...this is difficult! Last September, I went to the doctor because my feet were so painful that I could barely walk. This started about a year earlier. Turns out I have developed neuromas in both my feet. Neuromas are nerve tumors in the ball of your foot. So very painful! Through the winter, I was wearing sneakers for the most part and they got significantly better, but now that it's summer again and my feet get claustrophobic, I'm back in sandals and flip flops, causing my feet to ache quite a bit. But regardless of my footwear, if I walk or run a long distance it hurts like hell! So walking and running are not good for me. Swimming is my favorite, with biking a close second. Now the obstacle is getting the time from the kids to go do it. Maybe I'll tackle food before I start an exercise routine (which will mean the kids will be in school by then, and I will have the time to do it).
Ok, enough rambling about what I am going to do and just do it!
Tuesday, June 26, 2012
Life is good!
I haven't written in a long while. I realized that I was complaining a ton, and I was being really negative. I was using my blog as an outlet to not engage in therapy, and therefore setting myself back. So I put blogging aside and dealt with life.
I'm happy to say, I am doing very well! Yesterday, both my therapist and my psychiatrist agreed that I am well enough to discontinue treatment there. My medications are now going to be handled by my primary care physician. I've graduated from the DBT program, and am now ready and confident to step out into my life without their safety ropes.
In the last 14 years, since being diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder, I have had three therapist/psychiatrist teams release my care to my regular doctor. But this is the first time that I feel confident in their decision to do so. I feel good, I feel capable. I can do this.
So that's where I am...life is still very busy...
Tyson had his surgery to fix his neck in April...
School ended at the end of May, which meant I got to go on a bunch of field trips...
I decided to specialize in only newborn portraiture for my photography company and I couldn't be happier...
Ty is doing OT, PT, and ST twice a week...
And we will begin the intensive feeding program on July 10th...
I went to San Francisco to visit my sister and do her maternity photos...
And I get to go back when my nephew is born any day now!
Our family is working on our summer bucket list and having a blast doing all the fun things together...
Annie is currently at summer camp...
Jaxon's meds are working really well for him...
Cooper is still an evil genius...
Life is good! :-)
Of course there are always things that I will instinctively want to be better, but I can't focus on that. I need to focus on the good and be grateful for what I have. I'm one lucky lady to have Luke, the kids, family, friends.... Again, life is good!
I'm happy to say, I am doing very well! Yesterday, both my therapist and my psychiatrist agreed that I am well enough to discontinue treatment there. My medications are now going to be handled by my primary care physician. I've graduated from the DBT program, and am now ready and confident to step out into my life without their safety ropes.
In the last 14 years, since being diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder, I have had three therapist/psychiatrist teams release my care to my regular doctor. But this is the first time that I feel confident in their decision to do so. I feel good, I feel capable. I can do this.
So that's where I am...life is still very busy...
Tyson had his surgery to fix his neck in April...
School ended at the end of May, which meant I got to go on a bunch of field trips...
I decided to specialize in only newborn portraiture for my photography company and I couldn't be happier...
Ty is doing OT, PT, and ST twice a week...
And we will begin the intensive feeding program on July 10th...
I went to San Francisco to visit my sister and do her maternity photos...
And I get to go back when my nephew is born any day now!
Our family is working on our summer bucket list and having a blast doing all the fun things together...
Annie is currently at summer camp...
Jaxon's meds are working really well for him...
Cooper is still an evil genius...
Life is good! :-)
Of course there are always things that I will instinctively want to be better, but I can't focus on that. I need to focus on the good and be grateful for what I have. I'm one lucky lady to have Luke, the kids, family, friends.... Again, life is good!
Monday, February 27, 2012
Overwhelmed
It just so happens that I get sick and then Tyson gets sick the week I have a crap ton of other stuff to deal with...
I left therapy last week telling Julie I would review the interpersonal effectiveness chapter of my DBT book and then write out what I would like to address in our conversation. I did a little bit of it but kept realizing that I was still resentful and the work I was putting into it just was too biased. So I would set it down and pick it up later. It didn't get done. I started resenting the work as well. I have so many other things I need to get done and the fact that this stuff has become a priority among those made me angry.
I'm calling in this morning and cancelling the appointment. Frankly, I have other things that need my attention before I address that. I have to take Ty to the doctor today, I have to prepare for court on Wednesday by getting statements from Annie's therapist, I have to collect all my data to back up my requests, I need to address an argument with my sister...and I'm still sick myself.
It really bothers me that I need Julie to get through this other stuff and because of our argument, I'm uncomfortable to go to her with it. So the best course of action? Prepare prepare prepare...or take a nap....
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